In Under Our Skin, there’s a scene where Dana, one of the Lyme patients being followed, says, “Lyme pushes you to…What do you want? What are you living for? It’s not enough just to be alive.”
I’ve had my share of days like that. I had a day like that this last Sunday when a perfect storm of a pain--physical and emotional--collided with the unrelenting demands of motherhood and marriage. (It didn’t help that I stepped in cat poop for the third day in a row).
And so I ran away like every crazed mother dreams about now and then (don’t they?). I got in the car and took off. I got as far as the gas station and while it pumped, attempted to rationally consider the options.
It came down to this: I could run away from my daily life, but I couldn’t run from Lyme. And while Lyme makes my life very hard, physically and mentally, my family is what makes fighting it worthwhile.
So, when my sweet husband called for the fifth time, worried, not angry (bless him). I picked up his call and I headed back home. Back to his arms of love and the little lights in my world.
There's an update about Dana from the film on the Under Our Skin blog. In her conclusion, she gives me hope:
After ten years of Lyme, I’ve cleaned up and simplified my life. I have retreated deep into my soul and now I stand guard for everything that goes into body and mind. Whatever I have lost to Lyme I have gained ten-fold into my spirit.
Life is coming back to me and I am so grateful.
This was cross-posted to gratitude365.